Letting go

I was in a funk this week and was bordering on depressive thoughts. Everything seemed to go against my way - from my son's messed up sleeping pattern (but that's for my other blog to discuss), to the final date we are leaving KL (yes, we are moving to another country!), to things/people which/who are getting on my nerves, and to everything in between.

I had anticipated a severe migraine to crop up. Fortunately it did not. Maybe because I went to have a massage in the middle of the week, in the middle of the afternoon while I left my son to my husband who went home early from work just so he can pacify his almost hysterical wife. But as wonderful as the massage was, it didn't do anything to calm my nerves only my achy body. I was still in a funk.

Upon waking up today, I have decided to do something about this problem - To let go. As simple as that.

I have a tendency to over-think everything and to have control over every and single thing. It leaves me feeling overwhelmed, stressed and sometimes helpless. So I must stop this now. Let go....

I must restrain myself from thinking I can control everything. Maybe some things are just not meant to happen the exact way I want it to happen. Let go....

I must stop making people like me or trying hard to like people who are unlikeable. It's useless and pointless. Let go.....

I guess letting go is not as painful as it sounds. After all you are only letting go of things/people, which/who are not important to you. And after all you are only taking care of yourself.