Letting go

I was in a funk this week and was bordering on depressive thoughts. Everything seemed to go against my way - from my son's messed up sleeping pattern (but that's for my other blog to discuss), to the final date we are leaving KL (yes, we are moving to another country!), to things/people which/who are getting on my nerves, and to everything in between.

I had anticipated a severe migraine to crop up. Fortunately it did not. Maybe because I went to have a massage in the middle of the week, in the middle of the afternoon while I left my son to my husband who went home early from work just so he can pacify his almost hysterical wife. But as wonderful as the massage was, it didn't do anything to calm my nerves only my achy body. I was still in a funk.

Upon waking up today, I have decided to do something about this problem - To let go. As simple as that.

I have a tendency to over-think everything and to have control over every and single thing. It leaves me feeling overwhelmed, stressed and sometimes helpless. So I must stop this now. Let go....

I must restrain myself from thinking I can control everything. Maybe some things are just not meant to happen the exact way I want it to happen. Let go....

I must stop making people like me or trying hard to like people who are unlikeable. It's useless and pointless. Let go.....

I guess letting go is not as painful as it sounds. After all you are only letting go of things/people, which/who are not important to you. And after all you are only taking care of yourself.

"Life Transforming Idea"

I saw the discount first before I took notice of the title of this book. LOL!

10-10-10. It's for 10 minutes, 10 months, and 10 years. Interesting title for a book! I read the flap cover and it says "A Life-Transforming Idea". Now that made me curious.

I bought the book and was elated with the 20% off.

I am still on page 20 so I still couldn't grasp the whole concept. Will report back after I read the whole book.

Delayed Reaction

America has a new Idol. But I wasn't too happy with their choice. Oh well.

Although I had a feeling that it would be Kris Allen, I was still hoping for Adam to win. He totally deserves the title.

But on second thought, it's just a title anyway. I believe Adam Lambert will go a long way despite not being named the new AI.

I liked what Simon Cowell said: "The future is all yours."

And I am sure a bright future awaits Adam!

Flat ones

I think all the new hotels and the newly renovated hotels I've stayed in are using flat TVs. It uses minimal space and of course it is attractive to the guests.

I think we'll have one in our new condo in Manila as well. Since gadgets and electronic devices are getting cheaper every year, plasma TVs are now affordable. There's even no need to have a plasma stand. You can just put it up on the wall.

Oh well, I am blabbing now. Hahaha!!!

Must get out now for my last chance to get more tan.

Balinese massage

It couldn't get more authentic than this.

I had a Balinese massage at Bali!!! Oh yes, we're finally here. And we're having a fun time!

One of the agenda was of course to have a Balinese massage and I had one yesterday. It was a perfect end to my very exhausting day at the beach - playing and chasing after EJ.

I was a little apprehensive at the start of the massage. I chose a package which included a milk bath at the end of the massage. Isn't it a no-no to take a shower after the massage? The therapist said it was a warm bath so it was okay.

Surprisingly the minute I stepped on the tub, I felt all the tensions slowly ebb away. I was just a little scared that one of the chandeliers might fall on me while I dose off. Hahaha!!

It was a good experience and it was worth it.

Dreams

It's Mother's Day today. Happy mother's day to all the gorgeous moms out there!

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Today I woke up to a puzzling and weirdest dream ever. It wasn't scary like a horror kind but it feels scary nonetheless.

Usually my dreams have a story in it. But this one was weird. It keeps on jumping from one scene to another.

One minute I was an old woman crossing the street. Then the next minute I was a high school student teaching piano lessons to a toddler. How weird can this be? I am not musically inclined in the first place. Then I was on a beautiful beach with walking hand in hand with my husband.

I know why I was on the beach. I have been thinking a lot about our upcoming beach trip. But the rest of the dream was really weird.

I remember my professor in Social Science I. He asked us: what if our dreams are the reality and the reality we think it is, is really our dream?

I remember shaking my head. Our dreams couldn't be the reality. There's no continuity to our dreams. It simply is not possible.

So why do we really have dreams?

Get it on

I woke up this morning and I feel lighter. I had a feeling I'd lost a couple of pounds. So I got my tape measure and measure my waist. I lost half an inch! I am so excited! I know it's only half an inch but I am really happy with it. It's progress. I am still very far from my goal of 4 inches but at least I am on my way there. Losing weight is really a tough battle. A little encouragement goes a long way. And this half-inch loss is just the way to make push harder. But I wonder, am I really doing a lifestyle change or am I just trying to lose weight for our upcoming beach trip? Can I continue eating healthy food and exercising after our trip? Will it be hard to continue? Honestly, I know I am trying to lose weight to look good. Being healthy only comes second for now. But this I know for sure, I will continue taking nutritional health supplements and eating fruits and vegetables. I hope that I do find the right motivation to continue this goal after our trip.

Momentum

New week brings in new hope. And this week I am very positive I can stick to my plan and my exercises routine. Yesterday, I was proud of myself. I did three rounds of jumping rope (20 minutes each) exercises. I did 2 sets of crunches each with 100 repititions. I did basic yoga (mostly stretching) and most importantly I was mindful of what I ate. I felt good. Today the momentum is still there. I did the first round of jumping rope for 20 minutes and 2 sets of crunches. I am about to do another one in a moment but I am hesitant because my left leg is a little sore. But I need to go on otherwise I might get lazy again the rest of the week. Our Bali trip is only 9 days away. If only there's a magic way to lose all the love handles around the waist and the cellulites around the thighs...Sigh. I heard though that an elliptical works wonders on the lower body. Although I am doing okay with just my rope, sometimes I wish I have a gym of my own... But then again, I don't know if that would work on me. Sometimes I am the laziest person around! LOL

Bali trip preparation gone bad

Holidays really destroy my eating habit. It does! May 1 was a holiday. And guess what I have been doing? Eating of course! We bought this box of Krispy Kreme and I ate 3 doughnuts in one sitting! It was just too good to pass up. But of course I blamed hubby for buying it in the first place. Hahaha!! I am not really a fan of anything sweet but I don't know what came over me. I stuffed myself with these sinful delights! I so wish to have a rock hard, steel buildings-like body for our Bali trip. But I know it's impossible for now. Hopefully this week, I can control my cravings and stick to my healthy food diet.