Torn again

There's going to be an event next month - a family event in our place. And I bummed that I cannot go.

I have been thinking about it for two nights now. Weighing the pros and cons. And I couldn't come up with a decision that makes me happy.

For practical reasons, I shouldn't go. Going home is very expensive. We've reached our quota already when it comes to travel. Next week, we're going to Bangkok and on the first week of November we're going to Europe. So going home next month is a bit heavy on the pocket. Plus it's also stressful because when I come back from that event, I need to pack again for the trip to Europe.

But for family and for sentimental reasons, I really should go home. It's a momentous event and I want to be there with my family when it happens.

Ahhh...what a difficult situation I am in.

It's 60-40 right now in favor of not going home. My mind tells me it's practical to just stay here. But my heart is bleeding that I cannot go home.

I will sleep on it again tonight and hopefully tomorrow I can come up with a best decision.